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Welcome to this no-point blog i made in years :)
Things didnt worked out as i planned before, but its still working out as God planned i think......
You see, i watched Pirates of The Carribean, On Stranger Tides, few weeks ago.
Then suddenly i thought about whats in Jack Sparrows mind. And i had no idea-_-
He always looks so careless, stupid, drunk, and insane. But things he do, turn out to be things people need. He surprises people. He lied, he took advantages of people, but behind it, he has good intention of it. I started to think, maybe he's an angel, sent from heaven to balance people-around-hims life. And, i had this crazy thought, why cant i be like him? What if I do things that are good for others, i dont have to care about myself, i dont have to care about what risks there might be, what if i just do it? And i was like "Oh my God i have found what i was born for............". That was the moment i feel relieve, i feel so great.

A day passed, a week passed, i realize, its so hard to do. Not because you dont wanna to do it, but because you love people around you. You wanna make them feel you're there. So i failed. But it was a great lesson though. :)

Omaigat who am i and what have i done to myself?
This post is written when im drunk. Sorry. And yes, i got sober in seconds.